21-11-2020

Meditating for years has not

firmed my belief in God's existence.

And studying philosophy, religion

and science did not help me to

attain the true knowledge.

Neither did the vegetarianism

lead me to God.

Nor did eating meat and

consuming alcohol could

convert me into an atheist.

Holy books have failed to convince me

and so did the sufis and babas.

I don't know whether Descartes

was right or Bertrand Russel.

Half of my life is gone and

I still cannot claim to know the truth.

(muwahid)